Days like this,
are the kind that tend to kill me.
Nobody wants me.
Im all alone.
All I can do is sit here,
and worry.
Thats all I do anymore.
Worry about him.
Where is he?
Why hasnt he called?
Is he drinking?
Is he smoking?
Is he with someone else?
I cant stop.
Its all I do.
I cant go one day,
one fucking day,
without crying.
Crying my heart out.
I just dont know what to do anymore.
The only time where I want to be alive,
is when I am with him.
Which isnt nearly as much as I want to be with him.
I hate making her cry.
It happens way too much.
Im always why she crys.
Im the reason she worrys.
I hate myself.
I hate what I do.
I hate what I think.
I hate me.
I want to lay down in bed,
and not wake up.
I feel sick.
My heart is slowly breaking in half.
I dont mind that,
but I do mind how long it is taking.
I mind all the pain I have to go through while waiting to just die.
Please,
just help me.